Silly, sappy love-stories were all well and good to me. They were fun, light-hearted—and restricted only to books and movies. It’s what every hopeless romantic wishes would happen to them, right? It wasn’t that I imagined stories like “love at first sight” never happened, only that they would never happen to me. I’m too logical for that, I used to tell myself, priding myself on always letting my mind win over my heart. I thought to myself, that’s how stupid people get hurt. I would never have admitted it to myself then, but the truth was that that kind of over-the-top, outrageous, passionate and beautiful kind of love—the kind of love you usually only see on the silver screens—was all that I ever wanted. I wouldn’t admit it because it seemed too silly of a dream. Things like that just don’t happen to average people like me.
Now I find myself smack-dab right in the middle of a real-life romantic comedy, and my perception of love is truly beginning to change. Love isn’t something to be afraid of or shy away from—it’s something to exalt in, and relish. The desire for over-the-top passion and romance isn’t one to be ashamed of, it is a desire that you ought to seek to fulfill.
I still don’t believe in “love at first sight,” because romantic love is an incredibly deep and complex emotion, but I do know that the first time I ever laid eyes on him my heart skipped a beat. And the first time I managed to maintain more than a few seconds of eye-contact, I felt the most intense butterflies of my life. And that as I drove away from that initial encounter, I knew what I wanted. And it was him, and it was to love him, and to be loved by him.
I just knew it. I cannot explain it, and you know what the beautiful thing is? I don’t have to explain it to anyone. I simply get to luxuriate in the beauty of a dream come true.
I don’t know what to say.
You’re a beautiful person, you have the biggest heart of anyone I’ve ever met, you’re wonderfully intelligent, amazing, sweet, and just all around incredible.
I love you so much kitten.
You turn me into a huge sap.